Monday, October 13, 2003


Well I am guessing some of you were wondering if I just dropped of the face of this earth. Well obvioiusly not. I have just been so busy lately. Mostly with my church stuff. I am a youth leader now so alot of my time is spend with the youth and preparing activities. I am also back to teaching and singing at church so time is sparce. But I am so I neglected my blog. Just thought I would come on and say Happy Thanksgiving and tell you some of the things I am most thankful for. To start of first and most importantly I am thankful for Jesus and for him dying for me so I can live eternally in heaven second I am so thankful and excited about my cousin Mary's salvation. if you wann hear the amazing story read angelas blog. iam also thankful for my great church and pastor and family. There is much more I am thankful for and becuase of this I am not gonna write everything just to spare you all three pages of reading. Anyway I hope you all have a great thanksgiving and don't forget to relect upon the things you are thankful for this wonderful holiday season.

Monday, September 22, 2003

So many of my friends ask me " why don't you blog more often? " And the truth is I don't really know. I mean nearly everyday I sit here and type but then never end up posting it. I think that it is maybe becuase all of a sudden I have a problem with sharing my feelings. I used to be a person who would express my feelings without a problem. If I cared about someone I would tell them. Is it maybe becuase I was rejected by someone I loved and was also my best friend? What really happened. I really wish I knew. I realize that I am falling for someone again and I don't wanna face it in fear of rejection and loss. What can I do? Do i put my feeling on the line or do i just LEAVE it alone. I wish I had an answer.

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

Did I live a miracle? 

I don't even know how to explain what happened to me last night. My friend and I were pulling out of a Tim Hortons parking lot unto a very busy street. I was trying to make a left hand turned and I checked to make sure there was no on coming traffic. But I guess I didn't see a huge truck coming right for us. I merged into the oad anyhow and I hit the truck the wierd thing about this situation is that there was not a mark on the truck or my car but we hit eachother i felt it and so did my friend. God sent and angel to save us. It was amazing. The feeling is so scary i still am shaky. But it is wierd we were in the truck actually in it and God put His loving hand right over us and saved our lives. It has just encouraged me to further my relationship with Him. I realized that He isn't finished with me yet and gave me a second chance.

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

Can it be true!!!! 

Well lately I have been feeling uneasy in my home and at work and well pretty much everywhere I am. I have been feeling a wierd feeling of being followed all the time! And when I am at home I feel as though there is something unwanted in this house. Now I don't believe in ghost but I do beleive in demons. Now one of my friends that i went to highschool with is a Christian and she beleive that you can let things in by watching things you shouldn't and reading things u shouldn't and so on. So i have decided to stop watching these things and letting things in my life that shouldn't be there and that are putting my relationship with God on hold. So if anyone has and scripture or advice on this please comment. I mean honest things not things we read in urban legend books. I need to get this out of my life.

Tuesday, September 09, 2003


OK i think that I am probably in some serious need of venting!!!!!! WHY on earth do I find my dad so annoying. OK don't get me wrong I love my father to death and I DO respect him but he gets on my very last nerve!!! The reason I moved out last January is because him and I didn't get along and I couldn't take the arguing. But then in July when I was broke and had no money for bills he was there to help me back on my feet and let me come back home. And I am so thankful for that. But tonite he is driving me nuts he keeps bugging me about stupid things. Like for example I used to kind of know how to play the piano and it has always been a passion of mine to just sit at the bench and just try to play andything that comes to my finger tips, and since I can't read sheet music I play things that I think sound nice. And then all of a sudden he is like" Pam can you give it a break you are driving me nuts playing the same thing over and over. " HOW rude!!!! Maybe I am overreacting but that kinda hurt my feelings???? Was I being stupid for letting taht little comment bother me or do I have a right to be upset?????? WHO knows????????????
Other than that I have had a fairly good day. Slept in and got alot of much needed sleep!!!!!!!!
WEll that is it for today and comments will be well appreciated!!!! Thanks

Sunday, September 07, 2003

what shall it be?  

You know what I hate is when I can't come up with a cool title for my blog. OH well I guess there are worse things I could be worried about in life. LOL. Today was a great day. I saw and old friend from church whom I haven't seen in probably 6 months. It was weird the way we were able to just act like things were before.
I have been thinking about Joe alot lately and well I get so angry with myself, how come I love that guy so much. I mean I love someone who doesn't love me back. So I guess in alot of ways it is kinda like God I mean we use God and abuse him on a day to day basis and He still manages to wrap his loving arms around us and take us back in to His house. How cool is that.
I miss my sister so much, it is hard to beleive every day that I can't just get up and go hang out with her. I really wish I could. I mean there is the phone but that only does it for the time we are talking as soon as we say our goodbyes I start to babble like a baby. It is heart wrenching at times. Oh well MUST KEEP GOING :) lol
WEll that is it for today and I just wanna say thanks to all of you who read my blog not that it isall that interesting but some of you have been so faithfull thank you.

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

Well it is 1:53am and I cannot get to sleep, so I thought I should come on here and right a little blurb, it has been a few days so I guess I am due for one. Well my little sister is official gone, I cannot beleive she is 18 already and already started her first year of Bible College. I am so proud of her and I know God is gonna use her.
The thing I love the most about this Blogger page is that I can go on and on about things that maybe I think noone cares about, but then to my surprise someone comes along and gives me a comment. The comment kinda gives me a little hope that "hey there are people out there who are going through or have gone through the same things as I have." This weekend I grew a little closer to God. I got to hang out with my best friend Joe. Joe is truly a special guy he has so much talent and he is so smart, yet he pretty much spits in God's face. I realized that I better hold on too and cherise the relationship that I have with Jesus and build it up day by day. Joe used to be someone who truly loved God he gave his life to Christ, but one bad summer turned everything upside down. I had a good conversation with Joe this weekend and although he is denying Christ, he is helping me to want to get even closer to God. Could it possibly be that God is USING Joe to reach me? The more Joe denies Christ the more it makes me want to pray for him. I love Joe and it is hurting me to see him this way therefore it is also encouraging me to keep following the path that God has planned for my life.
I am so thankful for all of my friends, they encourage me in ways they may never know. I love each and everyone of them and thank God for placing them in my life.
Sarah who is Joes sister is the exact oposite of him. She loves God more than any other person I know. She used to be my roomate and at times I beleive she is my Godsend. She has picked me up and dusted me off when I thought noone else would and she is always there in a seconds notice. I thank Jesus for her.
Some people have told me to give up on my friendship with Joe becuase of the way he lives. But if I do what kind of effect will i have on his life. What if Sarah would have gave up on me? Where would I be today???????????

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